12/6/14
Today.
Today was a low self esteem day
I just wanted to stay in bed and not talk to anyone
Instead I went out and had nice dinner and had a nice night…I even played some games with my sister
I still don’t feel like I can make a good decision…but I feel a bit better about seeing and interacting with people.
I feel like as long as I’m improving, no matter how trivial it seems, it’s good. And recognising that improvement is good.
So it might turn into a low self esteem week. It might turn into a low confidence fortnight. But the bottom line is that if I improve every day I’ll get there.
I just hope no one tries to force me out of my comfort zone while I’m getting there.
It might not seem like it, but I’m already pushing myself by leaving my room and talking to people… giving me any kind of power in social contexts makes me panic and stress and I can’t handle it on a good day, let alone right now.